A free reflection · about five minutes
Whatever you wrote above, it's worth taking seriously. Naming a quiet ache before it has a name is hard, and you did it.
This is a reflective exercise, not a crisis service. If you are in distress or thinking about harming yourself, please don't wait for an email — contact a licensed psychotherapist or your local emergency services now. In the EU you can reach help on 112; findahelpline.com lists free, confidential lines worldwide.
This service is systemic counseling (Lebens- und Sozialberatung) pursuant to Austrian Gewerbeordnung. It is not psychotherapy and does not address diagnosis or mental illness. If you are experiencing a mental health crisis, please contact a licensed psychotherapist or emergency services.